Photos by Dori Hackleman, Vera Imago Photography
Maggie lost her brother to suicide when she was just seven-years-old and the repercussions of that are still with her today. She suffers from severe depression, borderline personality disorder, and anxiety. But her main mission in life is to be able to save anyone who needs saving. These photos and words are from her to catch a glimpse of what it’s like to struggle to carry on after losing a loved one to suicide.
“Isn’t it sad that people don’t understand how unwell you are until you do something stupid and end up in the hospital. I’m sad, stressed, and I can’t control anything. As I got older, I began to realize why people drink themselves to sleep and smoke until their lungs turn black; they’re killing the pain by killing themselves…
I’m scared to be happy because in just one second everything could come crashing down and I’d never survive it. Since the death of my brother, I’ve changed. The older I got, I still couldn’t understand why he left me.
I had no closure, no chance to say goodbye, and now I’m left in a broken, empty shell thinking, “What if I end up the way he did?” Every night those thoughts consume me and I am helpless.
I may not be able to help myself, but that’s okay. My purpose is to save someone else before I save myself.
The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-TALK (8255)
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